Journey of Happiness

There seemed to be something special about today. It was a normal Monday in the life of Holly. Subbed, nannied, Jenny Craig, came home. It sounds mundane when I put it that way. Let’s start over. I had my appointment at Jenny Craig this morning. I am down another 2.5 pounds totaling 9 pounds so far in the last 3 weeks. So, I was happy about that. My consultant wasn’t there, but the other consultant I spoke to was great as well. I’m always happy to see Jackie, too. She is the manager at my local branch and I have to say they all believe in me in a big way causing me to walk out with an extra bounce in my step every week. Then I was off to Chrysalis to substitute teach. I love it there, it’s like it’s own little family, and it is full of some fun and fascinating people. It’s a place that is full of love and joy for me. There is always a lot of laughing, a lot of hugs and a lot of deep conversations. I get so much pleasure out of getting to know these kids and the staff. It is impossible to leave without your spirit being lifted just a little bit higher than it was when you walked in. The kids I nanny for, who have become as good as family to me (their whole family has become like family to me), attend that school, so when schools over it’s time for my one on one time with them. I could have the worst day ever and my heart will still smile when I’m with them. I can’t help it. I love them. (I have a third job that I work occasionally in web design. I’m still learning, but I enjoy it. It’s fun for my brain to create and work on puzzles.) Tonight, when I got home, I did quite a bit of journalling along with some intention setting. There is a lot that I am tackling right now, but I am enjoying it. It’s opening me up to so much. Not only am I breaking down walls in the health aspect of my life, but, also in may other avenues. I am learning to embrace my femininity, which can be a challenge for a recovering tomboy. I am learning to give and receive love, allowing myself to trust others and to trust myself. I am working on getting “Miss Hollywood” back. All depending on how long you have known me (not how well, how long) you may be wondering what I mean. Miss Hollywood (or one of it’s many variations that was used: Hollywood, Holliswood, Hollywoo, Miss Wood...haha, That last one’s a little funnier at 31) was one of my nicknames as a kid because you couldn’t keep me off of a stage....and because my name is Holly. There is something so freeing about dancing, singing, acting and music. I want it back in my life. With Metaphysics of Christmas rehearsals starting back up, it’s time tackle those issues and break down those walls, too. I am striving to be the best me I can be (all while working and going to school). As hectic as my life may get sometimes, I love it all. My jobs, school, my friends, my family, my spiritual family, my friends that might as well be family, my church, the people there, my classmates, my Jenny C family, my incredible support system, helping kids, helping people, love, guidance and growing myself. If you told me 20 years ago that I could be this happy, I probably would have told you to “shut your pie hole” (Hey, I was only 11). I never imagined it. Even 10 years ago, I was happy, but never imagined it could get this good. I can already see love growing and beauty growing in the world all around me. Things are only going to get better and better, and that excites me.